Am I an lDlOT (interesting story inside)?

To make my story short, I shall only give the valid information. I grew up as a brilliant student. I went through 3 years of idiocy where I failed miserably at school. I then began to excel at school once more. I excelled so much that I managed to get into one of the-if not the most-prestigious high schools in my country. In my country, your intelligence, or rather, the score you get on a certain honourable test dictates what school you go to. I managed to get into one of the prestigious schools. Now, just as I got into that school, say a month later, the government experimented with their ancient practice. They took some students from lower achieving schools and transferred them to my school. To make the summary of my life all the most simpler. I endured tonnes or abuse from these intellectually inferior individuals. So much so that my schooI work took a back step. Emotion ruIed my Iife. Here I am, five years later. Trapped in the cycle of emotional control. I'm not quite awful at school. My grades are appalling. The exam which dictates what I'm going to be at life is in 2 months, and I'm not ready. Everything has gone wrong. My emotion now causes me to become physicaIIy sick. This inability to control my emotions has rendered me weak, and above all DUMB. It is sad.